Can I just vent for a minute.

Today is one of those days where you look at the calendar and feel you have accomplished nothing in prospective to time. Since my last post I have had the baby, totally neglected my studies and heard the stories of those around me. Earlier this year I promised myself I was going to give more and try to be a better me. 

I have experienced deaths, marriages, births and changes that are beyond my control. I feel like my life is not my own and that change is necessary in order to survive. No I'm not depressed or anything. I just feel like some of my more recent changes in life were beyond me. 

For instance, when people your age start dying it makes you want to value everyday a little more. It makes me sad that some ppl may never get the concept of enjoying like. All Im saying is enjoy the life that you have now. Either adapt or be prepared for things to phase out while yours still just existing. 

I am a reality show junkie and like the ones based out of Alaska like Frontier Men and some new one whose name I can't recall. Those people truly appreciate life and understand that anyday could be there last. So I say all of this to encourage someone to step out and be happy. Enjoy life. You dont have money to pay the bill send what you got and go visit some friends that make you laugh, like side splitting laugh. Lost a loved one, go find volunteer at a hospice. Dont have money to buy clothes or dining out go see a homeless shelter. I guarantee you your prospective will change. 

We can all do better. I have always been mindful that there is more to the world then my small drop of issues. Someone may have it worse or they might not. But we can all choose to wear a smile even if its gummy....


Until next time, 

Shann